Is That AdderALL?
I’ve got Ravi Shankar streaming and my head is preparing for slumber.
Today I took a full Adderall tablet for the first time. Having enjoyed such a remarkable mental benefit on the substance, I’ve wanted to savor the experience. I’m just afraid that the results I’m experiencing are fleeting. As any junky will tell you: The first high is the best, and only high, you’ll ever have.
I’ve been eating a half tablet each morning, even skipping days during the holiday where I don’t need as much mental power. In another week I’ll be giving it the full test as I return to work. What if I squander all the good effects during the holiday? I guess I shouldn’t get too bent up… if it were of temporary good, why waste it for work anyway?
Furthermore, the prescribed dosage is three times daily. I can’t imagine what I could accomplish under such a dose, but I’m saving that for the day when I need to pull out all the stops.
The sensation of a full tablet wasn’t as manic as the first day when I took half a tab. Instead it was just a warm and calm mental state, like my brain was wrapped in a cozy mental blanket on a cold and rainy day. It didn’t matter what I needed to do, I felt the mental capacity to do it. I focused on a couple small tasks but was reluctant still to engage in any major projects.
In: Depression · Tagged with: ADD, Adderall, ADHD, bi-polar, Depression