Sipping from the Grail
The last two days were my road test for the new Adderall prescription. It was my first full days back at the office after the long holiday. I’m afraid words will do little to describe the stunning ride I’m enjoying on this chemical. The mental clarity I’m experiencing is a first. I have been able to focus on my programming like never before. Hours in code mode and none of the frustration I’ve become accustomed to expect. The day is full of the usual challenges but I’m not foreboding every minute of it anymore. I finally feel normal and capable of doing my work.
I eat one tablet when I wake up at around 7am. By lunch I’m starting to cloud up again so I take another full tablet at around 1pm. It’s about 8pm now and I’m noticing a distinct fog to background the loud hissing which indicates my amphetamine is running low. My prescription allows for three tablets per day, but so far I’ve only ramped up to two.
My biggest concern is that I might build a tolerance for it. When I started the first dose two weeks ago I only took a half tablet, yet I was flying around for a good part of the day. A couple days later I took a full pill and enjoyed similar affect. About a week ago I started taking a full pill in the morning followed by a half-sustainer in the afternoon. I didn’t really have a lot going on during the holiday that required mental cycles so I opted to keep the dosage down.
You always hear the stories from junkies who become addicted to medication and must continue escalating their drug intake just to feel normal. I’m hoping this med only shares a name with meth.
In: Depression · Tagged with: Adderall, bi-polar, Depression, unable to concentrate